Making difficult decisions to get back to basics

reading-1698771_1920Part of the point of this blog was to talk about the struggles. But, when struggles hit, I tend to crawl under a rock and not come out, making it difficult to write a blog post.

I went through a really tough time in the fall. A few life altering events happened at the same time. I can handle a lot of stress, but there is a limit and when I reach the point of too much, my depression takes over and it takes me a while to get back on top of things.  I had to take time and make some changes to get back to basics.

For the last week, I’ve felt much better. This morning I did yoga! I consider these steps to getting back to where I was a year ago — when I was doing so well!

Isn’t it so frustrating how we can be in a place of doing great and then it all falls apart and we have to start from the ground up rebuilding? I know I’m not the only one that understands this.

I watched two of my dreams fall apart, out of my control. This was followed by months of restless nights and unproductive, napping days, and making a huge realization that in order to get better I have to cut a toxic person out of my life. That meant walking away from a group of  friends. But when I made that decision a weight fell off my shoulders. And those who are my friends, I still see. Am I angry that’s how I felt was the only way I could make this situation better? Yes.

If you have toxic people in your life — people who hold you back, put you down, sabotage opportunities, are negative nay-saying influences — you can and should remove them. It will be a difficult decision, but a necessary one.

I’ve been very conflicted about talking about this because I don’t like to lay blame. It’s a negative thing, and I prefer to focus on the positive. Then I realized I’m not blaming a toxic person for the effect they have. It’s how I respond to the things they do. And I’m tired of responding and deflecting. I’m tired of not sleeping and crying. So, I tapped out.

My healing journey is, once again, underway and I’m getting back to basics. A chocolate banana smoothie and yoga this morning. A green smoothie for lunch. Pushing the toxins out of my body will help my mind heal faster.

Once again I have plans and goals that I’m excited about.

If you’re struggling with your journey, talk to me. Maybe we can help each other stay the course.

One Comment Add yours

  1. All the best to you on your journey, Suzanne. Glad to see you are well on your way.

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